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NEED TO GET A CURE FOR MY WRITER’S BLOCK!!i’m just plain bored. haihzz..i miss all my friends back in secondary school. the feeling is absolutely different back then. all of us were maturing together. laughing our heads off a sickening jokes, not to mention horny ones..(thanks a lot kian liang and kirsten).

it’s just life i guess. not always the way you want it. the only way is to adapt to permanent changes. sometimes i look back into my past, viewing at the things i have done, there are certainly lots of mistakes. but being myself keeps me happy, so i hope friends out there..accept me the way i am. i am lonely at heart, where my family does not show much support. at some resort, i rely a lot on friends. but it’s all one network of friends out there, linking to one another.. jealousy is still around in the friendship world. what can i do?some things are not worth to put up into a fight. i rather let it go. in my life, i am surrounded by guys more than girls. maybe it’s because of my personality. not that i don’t like girls. but sometimes things are not right to be discussed among them.. in a girl’s world, there’s sure to have backstabbing and mean statements. i find it intolerable. my point of sensitivity has reached the optimum level. yet laughter is profound when there’s a girl talk. hee…hee..hee..

some things just stick to you in life… the past will always affect the future, one way or the other. it depends on how you think and act on the situation which is the same, right in front of your eyes. ahhhhhh………right now..i just wanna crawl to my kitchen and indulge into chocs…

knowing you takes my breath away.. seeing you made me blush.. talking to you all night and day.. feels like screaming joyfully on the top of my lungs.. I felt so light and relaxed.. Being so close to you.. But day by day I realize.. It’s not the usual feeling I use to feel.. You made my heart beat furiously.. Adrenaline rushing to my face.. Butterflies in my stomach wanting to break free.. Making me feel so tickly and funny.. Still not losing my grace.. I think I know what’s love by then.. The word itself makes me smile.. When I remember when.. You said that you’re loving as well.. But to whom I don’t know.. I secretly wished it was me.. But who am I to tell.. That I don’t deserve someone like you.. Especially someone like you.. So I tried to shut my doors.. Restrained myself from loving you.. But.. i don’t know how to stop it from spreading.. it’s like a virus with no antidote.. I suffered from not sleeping.. Ate with a stomach not filling.. Walked like a blind man on the streets… Talked to the birds, bees and the trees.. I wished all of this will end.. At this moment I wish I can just be your trusted friend.. But I can’t lie to myself either.. I don’t want my love for you to die.. And to wither… i promise i will be ever so loving.. if there is a glimmer of hope.. trust is what we both are looking for.. care and support is what’s next.. most important of all… love is what takes above the rest… i’ve done my best.. to help you see.. that love can be found.. in the coldest place wherever you might be.. now what i’m waiting for… is just your love.. and be with me..

good evening..a courtesy of being polite…now where do you often get to hear that nowadays?im just crapping..ignore me….hurmm…life’s good…cut my hair..total weirdo…hehe…look chicky aye?i thought so too..added two more subject this sem…gosh..stupid timetabe…abolosh LAN people!!!it’s a waste of time and money!!!haizz…busy busy busy everyday…after classes..which usually ends at three thirty…go back home to daddy’s..crash there…eat dinner..and out to pick my brother up from the gym…wish there’s an alternate routine i can have..it’s actually getting into my studies..not that i’m complaining..but my time is not fixed…even after picking my bro up..have to drop by at my grand’s at times..where we hang out there  till late at night..by the time i’m back..so so late…as my head touches the pillow..i snore…hardly have the time to relax…………but..at least i’m occupied..so that i can get my mind off at something…hehe…..but no matter how busy i get..still have to remind myself to keep in touch with old friends..and family members of course..start to miss my mummy…sniff sniff…..i love you mum!!!!